How do you feel?

[ESC94]

I´m having a cold right now, so it could be better.

 

[Brandt]

It's been a while since I had this feeling. The last time I felt something for someone, she was about to leave the country and said very nice things about us which made me more sad after she left.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gu3bYatxOqE

That's the song he sent me and said it makes him think of me, but also makes him a little melancholic because of the lyrics, especially for this part:

E tu, tu non ci sei più
Qui con me, però va beh
Qualcuno mi terrà compagnia
Saremo io e la mia malinconia

He didn't translate these lines. He probably didn't want to be specific with his feelings, or just wanted to force me into some more Italian practice. But Google translates this for me anyway.

And you, you are no longer there
Here with me, but it's okay
Someone will keep me company
It will be me and my melancholy

Well, this is because we live in different countries.

My common sense says stopping the communication is probably the best. But my heart is 250% opposite of this solution. I know I will feel the void after I stop talking to him, and we both try to postpone it as long as it goes. But it will come at some point, and both of us will feel like shit for a while.

Every time I try to convince myself this is maybe just not a big deal, all the things we have in common and the way we understand each other well get in the way of my thinking. Even texting someone online every day for hours at night without getting bored is an evidence itself, if nothing.

Sometimes life can be really exhausting, gurl.

 

[Leydan]

It's been a while since I had this feeling. The last time I felt something for someone, she was about to leave the country and said very nice things about us which made me more sad after she left.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gu3bYatxOqE

That's the song he sent me and said it makes him think of me, but also makes him a little melancholic because of the lyrics, especially for this part:

E tu, tu non ci sei più
Qui con me, però va beh
Qualcuno mi terrà compagnia
Saremo io e la mia malinconia

He didn't translate these lines. He probably didn't want to be specific with his feelings, or just wanted to force me into some more Italian practice. But Google translates this for me anyway.

And you, you are no longer there
Here with me, but it's okay
Someone will keep me company
It will be me and my melancholy

Well, this is because we live in different countries.

My common sense says stopping the communication is probably the best. But my heart is 250% opposite of this solution. I know I will feel the void after I stop talking to him, and we both try to postpone it as long as it goes. But it will come at some point, and both of us will feel like shit for a while.

Every time I try to convince myself this is maybe just not a big deal, all the things we have in common and the way we understand each other well get in the way of my thinking. Even texting someone online every day for hours at night without getting bored is an evidence itself, if nothing.

Sometimes life can be really exhausting, gurl.

It's never easy or simple, if it was then it wasn't real. It's obviously causing you a lot of torment but it seems you both have a deep connection and care for each other very deeply, if there was something there then it is worth fighting for, even if it hurts - Borders are nothing more than a political entity that are easily overcome. You may well regret it one day otherwise, and think "what if?". You are stuck in quite the conundrum - but that is just my 2 cent. Ultimately do what you think is best for you.

 

[DenizESC]

Borders are a social construct. Follow your heart.

 

[Brandt]

He offered me to move in Italy with him. I said I couldn't do it now as I have my responsibilities here, but it would be possible maybe next year, to which he responded with it would be too exhausting for both of us and he wouldn't want to wait that long. We weren't moving forward but we didn't want to step back either. Eventually we came to the conclusion that cutting the communication for good would be the best for each side as he didn't want to dream of having me by his side on the edge of the bed for a year and hugging me, and I didn't disagree. I am trying to recover from this but man it hurts. I woke up with sore chest pain and difficulty with breathing for a couple of times due to stress. I wasn't expecting it to have such an impact on me, but I just lost a piece of my soul after letting him go.

 

[Ausesken]

He offered me to move in Italy with him. I said I couldn't do it now as I have my responsibilities here, but it would be possible maybe next year, to which he responded with it would be too exhausting for both of us and he wouldn't want to wait that long. We weren't moving forward but we didn't want to step back either. Eventually we came to the conclusion that cutting the communication for good would be the best for each side as he didn't want to dream of having me by his side on the edge of the bed for a year and hugging me, and I didn't disagree. I am trying to recover from this but man it hurts. I woke up with sore chest pain and difficulty with breathing for a couple of times due to stress. I wasn't expecting it to have such an impact on me, but I just lost a piece of my soul after letting him go.

How sad that you finally had to make this decision I always thought borders are not important, that love can fight it all, but on the other hand I understand that it would be a very frustrating situation too. Sometimes it's better making hard, painful decisions to go on and be happier in the long run. I hope you count on your friends during this process, and perhaps writing a diary would help you too. For some weeks I wrote how I felt every night in a notebook, I wrote my impressions and my intentions, and it's helped me a lot. Anyway, do not hesitate to PM me if you need to vent, even though unfortunately I'm not good at all at finding the right words to support people...

 

[Ausesken]

My brain always be like:

All day:

From midnight:

 

[Hobla]

Well, I have mixed feelings. I have an appointment with former schoolmates but I can't finish my current college assignments. It's so dull and dumb. In order not to miss this meeting I decided to ask for quality assignment writing help which will save my free time. At least I hope so. And then I'll be able to meet my old friends finally.

 

[BernadetteCydonia]

my work practice is over! however I will obviously miss my mom's work cabinet. Though I will still be able to travel to my college and back and supply myself with food if needed. However I'm behind a lot of collegework and besides that my sleep schedule is shambles (I'm posting this at 2:22 eventhough I should go to bed!). But I'm fine, I guess

 

[ESC94]

I´m having a terrible headache right now.

 

[Ausesken]

I feel demotivated

 

[Charly]

I feel like im ready to go for the next grading

 

[Fierro]

In five years I will be 30, and in fifteen years I'll turn 40. This thought terrifies me right now and I cannot fall asleep because of that.

Pls help

 

[r3gg13]

In five years I will be 30, and in fifteen years I'll turn 40. This thought terrifies me right now and I cannot fall asleep because of that.

Pls help

I'll be 30 in a few months, and I can definitely relate to how you're feeling. Life is fast and will only get faster! What's great is that you have the capacity to fill it with great experiences, memories and happiness!

 

[AlekS]

34 and I don't wanna go back I've just started feeling happy / at peace with myself this year and it feels the best.
Also I don't smoke/drink/eat too much etc. and I look 10 years younger.
I've had the same thought like [MENTION=12992]Fierro[/MENTION] recently but I was like:

 

[RainyWoods]

[MENTION=4377]AlekS[/MENTION] Oh my gosh, I’m shocked you’re 341 From your pictures I assumed you were younger than me and probably in your mid twenties. I was going to ask what your secret was but you already revealed it. You don’t smoke, drink or eat It’s not going to be much good for me as I already avoid the first two (admittedly I occasionally ok, all the time eat cake and giant bags of crisps all by myself). Glad you’re finally feeling happy.

I get sad when I think of how fast time goes by, but at the same time, I don’t think I want to go back either. As I approach thirty, for the first time in my life I feel kind of good about myself. I had the most awkward teen years, followed by some equally awkward ones as a young adult. I’ve got a really solid idea now of who I am and where I want to be. Maybe it’s going to hit me a little when I actually do turn thirty, but right now I’m feeling optimistic.
[MENTION=12992]Fierro[/MENTION] The best years of your life are still to come my friend. My mother is in her sixties but still has the mind and enthusiasm of a young girl. It’s all about what you feel in your heart. You’re still young. You’re not even in your prime yet. That starts in your thirties *adjusts bowtie in preparation*.

 

[Ausesken]

I don't like getting older because I want to be young forever, I admit it but I also think that I will do in my 30s many things I haven't done in my 20s, and I'm really looking forward to it, especially having my own home and hopefully my own family. There are many good things to come in this new decade of my life starting in April next year...

 

[DenizESC]

Just do it like my Grandma, if we have to believe her; she's been 75 ever since I was born -O-

75, the real prime

 

[Fierro]

Just do it like my Grandma, if we have to believe her; she's been 75 ever since I was born -O-

75, the real prime

It's like my violin teacher in school times who always were 18 And every birthday I wished her happy 18 years Even though she was born in 1950s

 

[AlekS]

I was going to ask what your secret.

Good genes and doing sports too. + not exposing my skin to strong sunlight (cancer, sashay away).