RainyWoods
Croak-kay
[MENTION=13974]DenizESC[/MENTION] I understand you there, as being judged has always been my biggest fear. Not being able to control a persons perception of you.
I think that problem goes way back to my childhood and i've taken it into adulthood. I do believe though that i'm slowly making progress. We all as people have many sides. I'm not a clear-cut person by any means, and i'm becoming confident enough with the lighter side of me that i'm starting to care less about any exposure of the more difficult areas.
People have told me in the past that i'm someone who sees the good in anyone or any situation. Whilst that may be true to an extent, I do also see the bad. It's just I don't focus on it. If I see good in someone or something, I latch onto it. In this social media crazy world we live in today, we as a society have this horrible way of devouring whole people for at times the smallest of things often said or done with naivety, and I don't like that. People don't grow by mass scolding or shaming them. I always try and understand people and their actions even if I don't agree with them. I wasn't always this way though. I became quite hateful during my teens, and the last couple of years I noticed some negative energy returning, but when it comes to friends, I like to listen, learn more and help if I can.
I don't even know where i'm going with this now and if it still has correlation with what you were writing Deniz but... yeah. I get you. I've also done the write big post and delete it thing before on multiple occasions.
I think that problem goes way back to my childhood and i've taken it into adulthood. I do believe though that i'm slowly making progress. We all as people have many sides. I'm not a clear-cut person by any means, and i'm becoming confident enough with the lighter side of me that i'm starting to care less about any exposure of the more difficult areas.
People have told me in the past that i'm someone who sees the good in anyone or any situation. Whilst that may be true to an extent, I do also see the bad. It's just I don't focus on it. If I see good in someone or something, I latch onto it. In this social media crazy world we live in today, we as a society have this horrible way of devouring whole people for at times the smallest of things often said or done with naivety, and I don't like that. People don't grow by mass scolding or shaming them. I always try and understand people and their actions even if I don't agree with them. I wasn't always this way though. I became quite hateful during my teens, and the last couple of years I noticed some negative energy returning, but when it comes to friends, I like to listen, learn more and help if I can.
I don't even know where i'm going with this now and if it still has correlation with what you were writing Deniz but... yeah. I get you. I've also done the write big post and delete it thing before on multiple occasions.