I AM LEGIT LAUGHING (AND CRYING BECAUSE OF THAT) FOR 10 MINUTES STRAIGHT BUT THERE IS NOTHING FUNNY HAPPENING
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How do you feel?
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only you could get me on my brand new low
i cant wait til you reveal my darkest secret to everyone here
only you could get me on my brand new low
i cant wait til you reveal my darkest secret to everyone here
trusting me when i don't even trust myself might be ur single greatest clownery tbh fdsdfdsfdsfssdfs kidding ofc, you know i would never throw u under the bus
we have dirt on each other so its good
but i feel one day someone will expose all of us there.
i already did
kidding ofc, you know i would never throw u under the bus
we have dirt on each other so its good
no one:
Ana:
RainyWoods
Croak-kay
The last few weeks have been surreal for me. Things happened and I was prescribed antidepressants and this time I took them (I refused to for years). These Sertraline tablets had a terrible way with my body and mind though. I was experiencing persistent panic attacks. I could barely string sentences together. It felt like there was someone standing behind me with two fingers and thumbs pulling back my eyelids at all times. On day five I woke up as usual feeling horribly sick but I could feel the top of my head going cold also, like it was freezing with a million pins and needles, and yet I was sweating with a soaring temperature. I was shaking and panicking, eventually completely losing control of my breath. I had to for the first time in my life call an ambulance. I won’t go over the details of what happened when they got here but it was absolutely awful, and things got worse. The last few weeks (heck, months even) had already been hard for me, more so than usual. I couldn’t catch even a little break when trying something with an open “come on, let’s do this!” frame of mind. But it's ok! I made it through.
It’s been five days now almost without that stuff entering my body but i've still had to wait for it to exit. Gradually I’ve gained control of myself again. I feel a bit groggy but I'm starting to feel like me. It takes five days before 99% of the Sertraline leaves your body. This stuff works for some but it's obviously not going to be the route for me. Besides all the scary stuff that happened to my body, I was a completely different person during my time on this medication, unable to function on a basic level, laugh, enjoy music etc. In a super strange way, this whole nightmarish experience has left me more optimistic than I’ve ever been about my future. There are other things I can do to help manage my anxiety and lift myself up away from depression. A big part of that can be talking, and I'm starting to be more open. A couple of people helped me out here recently, and I'm grateful for that. Over the years in fact people have shown me such kindness here, even when I've been difficult or distant. I love this community so much.
So yeah, long story short: Scary, unpleasant few weeks but I'm feeling optimistic and also grateful for everything I've got.
It’s been five days now almost without that stuff entering my body but i've still had to wait for it to exit. Gradually I’ve gained control of myself again. I feel a bit groggy but I'm starting to feel like me. It takes five days before 99% of the Sertraline leaves your body. This stuff works for some but it's obviously not going to be the route for me. Besides all the scary stuff that happened to my body, I was a completely different person during my time on this medication, unable to function on a basic level, laugh, enjoy music etc. In a super strange way, this whole nightmarish experience has left me more optimistic than I’ve ever been about my future. There are other things I can do to help manage my anxiety and lift myself up away from depression. A big part of that can be talking, and I'm starting to be more open. A couple of people helped me out here recently, and I'm grateful for that. Over the years in fact people have shown me such kindness here, even when I've been difficult or distant. I love this community so much.
So yeah, long story short: Scary, unpleasant few weeks but I'm feeling optimistic and also grateful for everything I've got.
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3333333333 you are strong and i'm so proud of what you've done until now. it's not always that your medication works at first (my anxiety ones where switched as well at some point), so being able to recognize it and face it is already a victory. hope you get a better option this time. and don't forget that my inbox (both here and on facebook) is always open whenever you need it.also deniz beautiful lyrics
RainyWoods
Croak-kay
also deniz beautiful lyrics
Yeah, I've been doing a lot of research and there are other medications. I'm naturally kind of (secretly a lot) scared all over again about trying meds cause of what happened but we'll see. I'll give whatever a go.
In fact, I was prescribed Diazepam with the Sertraline, and told only to take them if I was panicking or feeling really anxious about upcoming events, situations etc. These have been doing their job but I understand they are not supposed to be a full time thing. Since my whole episode I've been taking a Diazepam if I've been feeling some kind of attack coming on and they've been working (perhaps too well). Maybe if I could long term be able to use something like this for just troubling situations, it might work out better for me.
Thank you Ana and Deniz for the nice words and kindness
it's normal to be scared of something when your previous experience was not good with it - at least i am like that with a lot of things. again, i'll be there if you need some support/a ear to listen to your fears.Yeah, I've been doing a lot of research and there are other medications. I'm naturally kind of (secretly a lot) scared all over again about trying meds cause of what happened but we'll see. I'll give whatever a go.
In fact, I was prescribed Diazepam with the Sertraline, and told only to take them if I was panicking or feeling really anxious about upcoming events, situations etc. These have been doing their job but I understand they are not supposed to be a full time thing. Since my whole episode I've been taking a Diazepam if I've been feeling some kind of attack coming on and they've been working (perhaps too well). Maybe if I could long term be able to use something like this for just troubling situations, it might work out better for me.
Thank you Ana and Deniz for the nice words and kindness
sigh
that moment you thought you had taken one step closer to achieving your goal but then it does feel now that you took two steps further
that moment you thought you had taken one step closer to achieving your goal but then it does feel now that you took two steps further
This got recommended to me by Youtube and by the looks of it, to many other people. YT recommendations always come at the weirdest times but thanks, I guess I needed that. RIP Bernard Albertson, you made this world a little better.
RainyWoods
Croak-kay
Me: perhaps we should call and ask if we can do this process online.
The other person: no, nevermind, I'll go there and will do it in person.
Also the other person: they told me it has to be done online, you see? We should have called and ask, I have gone there for nothing
Me: ....
The other person: no, nevermind, I'll go there and will do it in person.
Also the other person: they told me it has to be done online, you see? We should have called and ask, I have gone there for nothing
Me: ....