wow, i don't even know where to start.
my first ever contact with Kate was with Dance Academy, about seven/six years ago, I suppose, with Abigail's dance solo in season 2. She danced to The Last Day On Earth. Such a lovely song. I wonder why didn't I looked into her discography that time. I should.
When she was announced as a contestant on the NF, I didn't even realize it was her! She had my favorite song from the get-go, yet I didn't even watch the NF that time (it was just... too early here). I remember waking up and opening my scoreboard to see who won, and when I saw her name, I was SO EXCITED! Most people were bashing her performance, but I really liked it. She was placed in my top 10 all the time, around 8th. It took me a few weeks to realize "OH MY GOD SHE IS THE GIRL FROM THAT ABIGAIL SONG!!!!" and after that I just became more and more and more excited about her.
And then... the first rehearsal clip. Guys... my wig. I was impressed! The song is already the over the top popera song that I ADORE to death (see @ me stanning cezar in almost every sing thing). The poles, the witches, the space, her beauty... everything was on point. What about the second rehearsal? Even better. She kept climbing in my ranking. My official turning point was a 20s video from the jury show on semi 1, when it starts the "nothing holding me down part". Guys... I've never cried so much listening to a song. I consider myself an emotional person, but I don't really cry with songs. I've teared up with about three songs from Eurovision. This one wasn't in the tear up level. I cried, I really cried. It was at that moment that she became my winner for good.
If I cried with 20s of a clip, imagine when I saw the performance. One minute in and I was already bursting into tears. I didn't even shed a tear when two of my friends died suddenly, yet this song made me cry the most in years. And I had a class to attend an hour later. How was I psychologically able? It is a mystery.
Anyway, yesterday, for the first time, I hosted a Eurovision live-watching party at home (for three people nn) and the first thing I said was that "I'M TELLING YOU GUYS ALREADY THAT I'LL CRY WHEN AUSTRALIA PERFORMS!!!!!!!". When it started, my friend and I were singing along (my other friend didn't know the lyrics), but them I started hearing something strange and asked my friend to start singing for a second. It's when we could hear the public singing along. This was such an emotional and powerful moment, it was when I started crying again and never stopped until the end of Miki's performance. And somehow it made me so deluded that "she could win after all".
With her results, I am disappointed. Despite being the most balanced result for Australia, as the points from the jury and televote were similar. Despite being a popera entry who actually does well and somewhat avenging Cezar and Malena. I really wanted her to win. I don't remember rooting for someone in Eurovision as much as I rooted for her, and, well, I'm not someone who likes losing. I'm not even Australian and my country doesn't even take part in Eurovision, yet I felt like it did for once.
Well, what is done is done. All I have to do I thank Kate. Thank you for being an amazing artist. Thank you for being an amazing person. Thank you for taking part of Eurovision. Thank you for the best staging I've ever seen. Thank you for turning into my favorite. Just, really, thank you for existing.
Not music first, enjoyment first.
It's almost 3 am, I am crying since I started writing this text and I have yet to wash the dishes nnnn also watch dance academy
I’m still not crazy for it as a piece of music but I voted for it last night thinking of [MENTION=16089]anaraqueen[/MENTION] (just for you sis).
this means so much to me. may you be blessed for the rest of your life.