I don't think I have posted here yet.
Mother tongue, but with a Limburgish accent so the rest of the Netherlands sometimes assume I don't speak Dutch at all and start speaking English to me.
I don't really know whether German or English is my second language, since English is omnipresent, but I grew up in the Netherlands exactly 30 seconds away from the border with Germany. Needless to say, I grew up hearing German almost every day. I understand it perfectly well (level C2), but speaking German is still proving to be difficult sometimes (probably still level C1 though), even afters years of studying the language (I am following a Master's degree in multilingual communication). Growing up at the border, I had to learn how to understand German, but I never had to learn how to speak it, since they would understand me if I just spoke Dutch. The same applies to the dialect that people speak there. I can understand everything, but I don't dare to say anything in the dialect unless I am trying to entertain people. It is probably just a confidence and a perfectionist thing and the only way to overcome that is by practise, but I am too introvert for that.
English has saved me from very awkward situations when people assumed I didn't speak Dutch and considering the fact that many Dutch people speak English to me, it was imperative to learn the language haha. I was also very ashamed of my own accent in Dutch and sometimes I would just pretend I didn't speak the language and just spoke English, because apparantly that was less embarrassing and I felt people would take me more seriously somehow. Level C2.
I seem to have a problematic relationship with French. I got 6 years of French education in secondary school and my French was pretty good (level B2). I could easily start and keep conversations going and the lack of confidence that I had with German, I never had with French. Then I forgot everything again. Then I got a French boyfriend. I started speaking the language on a regular basis again. I got good again (level B2). Then we broke up, I started hating everything French and now I pretty much forgot everything again (level A1). In the future I may want to start learning French again (and preferably not forget it this time), because otherwise learning French all those years has been such a gigantic waste of effort and time.
My new boyfriend is from Brazil. He speaks a bunch of languages, including Dutch. So no problem there. Sadly, his family only speaks Portuguese. My Portuguese was better than their English even before I actively started learning it (and that says a lot hehe). Last summer I went to Brazil with him to visit his family and a few weeks before I went I started my Portuguese learning journey. I can say pretty basic things like "hi how are you" and "the food is nice" and "that baby is cute" and "how did you sleep?", but that is about it. I want to be able to speak it well enough in the future. Then I will surprise all of his family and friends with my Portuguese language skills.
I have put learning the language on hold for now since I have to write my Master's thesis and that consumes all my energy, but once I am finished with that, I will go in full ninja learning mode. For now I am still stuck at A1.
I started learning it for some time and it was fun, but I eventually gave up on it, since learning Chinese requires a lot of effort and time and I just don't have the same motivation as I have for Portuguese and it seems useless to learn a language and not aim for fluency.
A language I would want to learn when my midlife crisis hits:
. It is such a beautiful language.
@anaraqueen My boyfriend wanted to study in the Netherlands too, but it is indeed crazy expensive for non-European citizens. He went to Belgium instead. It is a lot cheaper there. Maybe something to look into?