How do you feel?

[Leydan]

You think you've seen it all until you see a shoplifter off their face on drugs take a shit in a Tesco changing room and then try to leave like nothing has happened.

 

[Ana Raquel]

freaking b*ls*n*r* is ruining my future i hate him and everyone else no exception who voted for him

thank you

 

[Ana Raquel]

freaking b*ls*n*r* is ruining my future i hate him and everyone else no exception who voted for him

thank you

update i bought ice cream i am now feeling better

 

[ESC94]

Well, I feel quite ok today. Sadly my father has to stay longer in the hospital.

 

[Brandt]

I was sleeping and woke up to the phone ringing. The lady on the phone asked me if I still wanted the job I applied for. But during our conversation, I asked the dumbest question you can ever imagine.

"We expect to see you on Monday," she says, to which I respond with "For the job interview or do I start working on Monday?" I mean like, seriously did I just ask that? xd

She sarcastically laughed and said for the interview.

I hope I didn't lose the job from the beginning.

 

[Ausesken]

I need a little virtual ostracism. Even socialising on the internet takes energy away from me, especially since I feel I can’t be myself. The internet used to be the place where I felt comfortable, but now I don’t even have this.

 

[ESC94]

Well, I just came back from the hospital where my father is. His liver and kidneys don´t work anymore, and it´s sadly only a matter of days until it´s over.

 

[mauve]

How do I feel after my dad passed away two weeks ago?
I ahd a very close relationship to him, so what I still feel is inconceivability. Everytime I walk into a room or see his clothes, it seems like someone is ripping my heart out of my body. On the other hand, I have my wonderful brother and mom who really helps me coping with this nightmare. That helps so much.
And it really helps being here in this forum. To talk about the most wonderful thing in the world: music. It eases the pain. So thank you all for being here. Even though I know noone of you in person, you mean a lot.
And @ESC94 wish you all the best. I know exactly how you feel. Big hugs.

 

[Edweis]

@ESC94 @mauve sorry to hear you're both having such a hard time I hope this forum will help you ease the pain a little.
Losing my parents terrifies me, the fact I'm an only child doesn't help, I can't even imagine the pain your going through.
Sending you much love

 

[mauve]

@ESC94 @mauve sorry to hear you're both having such a hard time I hope this forum will help you ease the pain a little.
Losing my parents terrifies me, the fact I'm an only child doesn't help, I can't even imagine the pain your going through.
Sending you much love

Thank you so much for your warm words. I also try to see the good side of it. My dad passed away without pain at all. He was 91 and had a great fullfilling life. Losing your parents - when you have a great connection to them - is really hard, but I learned that it is possible to cope with it even when only two weeks has passed. And we won't burry him the common way. There is tree of life-thing. His ashes will be mixed with a tree plant and he will come back into our garden as a tree in a few months. That's a comfort to see anew life coming out of him.

 

[ESC94]

My father passed away yesterday. I´m very sad but at the same time it´s good that the doesn´t have to suffer any longer.

 

[mauve]

My father passed away yesterday. I´m very sad but at the same time it´s good that the doesn´t have to suffer any longer.

ESC94, it's absolutely right. It was the same with my dad. It was so damn hard cause in our case it rather came completely unexpected, but we know that it was the best way he went from us. And after two weeks now, I feel quite balanced actually. But as I said because of my mom and my brother and because of not retiring in my shell, but to stay here in this forum. That really helps so much. I give you much power and many hugs.

 

[Ausesken]

Wondering if I am a good person, despite not being all goodness.
The reason I'm thinking about this is an article a friend shared in Facebook that I found quite interesting. I'll paste under the spoiler the (Google XD) translation of part of it:

Kindness is the highest point of intelligence
Goodness is the pinnacle of intelligence. It is its most zenithic point, the moment in which intelligence is surprised by what it is capable of doing for itself. I read in an interview with Richard Davidson, a specialist in affective neuroscience, that "the basis of a healthy brain is goodness."

I usually define goodness as any course of action that helps happiness to appear in the life of the other. Sometimes it is accompanied by generosity, which arises when one person prefers to lower the level of satisfaction of their interests in exchange for the other to expand theirs, and that in sentimentally well-built people is usually returned with gratitude.

In the affective architecture I place goodness as a counterpoint of cruelty (the use of damage to obtain a benefit), evil (execution of a damage even if it does not attach revenues), perversity (when there is gloating when inflicting damage on someone), malice (wanting the harm in the other even if you do not participate directly in it). Goodness is just the opposite of these feelings that require suffering in order to be.

Kindness links with affability, tenderness, care, attention, connectivity, empathy, compassion, fraternity, all of them feelings and behaviors predisposed to incorporate the other in both deliberations and personal actions. It would be all the sentimental apparatus in which one is attentive to the requirements of the other.

According to the nomenclature that I use in the essay The feelings are also right, they would be the affective devices of opening to the other. Kindness is that action in which we treat the other with the kindness and consideration that every person deserves for the fact of being. Trying to fulfill our purposes but also taking into account those of the other is a very wise behavior for others to replicate when we are the recipients of the course of action.

Certainly I know I'm not the kind of person that treat others in a bad way, but is it possible to be good all the time? I don't think so.

 

[DenizESC]

So @DaFlo @RainyWoods @Gera11 and everyone else I'm forgetting. Time for me to brag.

Y'all missed an amazing night of us playing Big Brother Online. Me totally rip'ing our hoes from the forum and their online alliance members. @AshleyWright and @theCONWEL especially were big victims, I apoligize to y'all. It was nothing personal. I picked random online people over them in final 3 yelling IM THE QUEEN, QUEEN WINS all the way to winning not just 1 but 2 times and with like 7-8 immunities. But for real though I also socially slayed that house down with that Greek user who told me Ashleys secrets lmao and that Brazillian men loving user who I told was my closest ally to cut her off right before final 3, psychology school rlly works this was so much fun. I will brag about this until 2027

Special mention to @anaraqueen and @SaladBreak @Ausesken for being amazing friends and allies on the way and all reached glory as well.

Ashley: "Ugh, its just a game"
theConwell: "So tonight, we've learned that everybody is a snake and not to be trusted x"
Both: "but...but...just lucky"

No butts. Dont't be bitter, be better.

 

[SaladBreak]

@DenizESC Lol you actually won, even though idk how it was decidedView attachment 269

Olga and I also among the royalty thoughView attachment 270

 

[DenizESC]

@SaladBreak

This round as well. I'm not sure who should be my main account now. Hmmm. Leydan 9th

Im guessing whoever had the most decisive votes + pov wins

@anaraqueen sis u were 2nd

 

[Ausesken]

While I was playing I thought: I'm 29 yo, am I really playing this and enjoying it? Yes, I am It was too much fun

 

[DenizESC]

While I was playing I thought: I'm 29 yo, am I really playing this and enjoying it? Yes, I am It was too much fun

Well it's a pretty 'adult' game in Big Brother/Survivor style. It just means we should probably join our local reality shows in the future I'm lowkey hooked too.

 

[Ausesken]

Well it's a pretty 'adult' game in Big Brother/Survivor style. It just means we should probably join our local reality shows in the future I'm lowkey hooked too.

Remember this team when you become famous for winning Big Brother/Survivor, as you obviously discovered a hidden (or not so hidden) talent to win them

 

[Edweis]

@SaladBreak

This round as well. I'm not sure who should be my main account now. Hmmm. Leydan 9th

Im guessing whoever had the most decisive votes + pov wins

@anaraqueen sis u were 2nd

Says the guy who doesn't do second accounts