I'm just so sick of doing badly again and again and again and again. The only two times I've even qualified for round 2 since joining the official roster, I've done brutally horribly both times, ranking second last in 185 and going on a long streak of 0 votes the second time that prompted somebody to make fun of it with one of those distracted boyfriend photos. At this point, with how overwhelmingly unpopular my taste in music is here, it's genuinely not funny to me.
Trust me, I totally see where you're coming from. See my wikia (
https://nsc.fandom.com/wiki/Tuzi) and just look at how many NQ streaks I've had. They haven't been easy to take and made me question my competitive ability or even taste whatsoever many occasions. You'll see some successful periods, but I've also had a period of almost 1.5 years with no TOP 10.
People here are not malicious nor mean harm. It was probably a meme someone thought would be fitting at given moment but I totally understand it could make you feel humiliated as much as strong that word may sound. You'll get to learn with time people here have unique sense of humour and even though I haven't understood it nor participated in it at all times - I've grown to enjoy and appreciate it for what it is. It's all fun and game to be entertained by at the end of the day.
I'm sure a right song will happen for you and you'll achieve a glowing result. Feel free to PM me (I really mean this) if you want some guidelines on how to pick a good entry that will fit both sides of coin: personal fondness and competitive/lucrative character. I'm eager to help you and show you some songs I have since I liked many of your entries.
Hugs, Vaso.